Horrible Dream/Great Realization

I'm pretty known for having the weirdest dreams you can think of. Honestly. I've had dreams about all sorts of off the wall things. I dream about the people in my life more often than not and lately there has been one person that appears quite often in my dreams: Mr. Amazing. However, last night I had a dream that made me wake up crying. It was so horrible. I was sitting in sacrament and Chey was at the front giving a talk. We were texting and out of no where he tells me he's leaving. My heart broke! Omg it was so upseting. I spent the rest of the dream trying to send him a text message about how much I loved him and how I didn't want this to happen but everytime I hit send the text never went through. Sheesh. I'm still upset about the thought of it.

I've been doing some thinking lately. I'm in a position I've never been in before and its strange. Through out our lives we come across a variety of people to date. Though they end in heart break they serve a very important purpose: they bring us closer to the person we will spend eternity with. Though the people around me were certain they had found "the one" when we were freshmen in high school, I knew that I hadn't. The only person I had this thought about was the boyfriend I had previous to Chey. We obviously broke up though (thank goodness) and I am now dating the person I know is right for me. How do I know though? I'll tell you. Aside from the insanely strong gut feeling I get everytime I think about marrying Mr. Amazing, there are some things that prove everything a little bit more.

1. Since I can rememeber I have been writing a list in my mind of the qualities my future husband will have. The list is rather large, I'm a picky person and I've been adding to the list from a very young age (even as a child I've been a hopeless romantic). Anyways the list includes some obvious important qualities and even some shallow ones. But hey its my list right. I always wanted a soccer player, kind and loving, someone incredibly good looking (obviously), someone who could make me laugh. There are other qualities I have that I can't put into words. It's hard to explain but I knew the feeling I would get being around this person. Now my last bf (let's just call him X) had some (yet few) of these qualities. About a year ago I had made a marriage time capsul that contained all the qualities of my future husband. I was shocked at myself when I realized that every quality I had put down was one of X's qualities BUT NOT ANY of the qualities I had originally wanted. I had settled. When I look at Chey though I don't have to settle for anything. Even before we started dating I knew that he was someone amazing. We would sit and text all night about random things and without knowing it he would unveil one of his qualities that matched exactly what I wanted. He even has qualities that I never put in to words what I wanted but that make up my perfect future husband.

2. When I was with X I was constantly a nervous wreck. I always had to worry about whether or not we would be together. "If I do this will it ruin everything?" That was a constant day-to-day question that ran through my head with every move I made. And I knew deep down that even though I wanted to marry him I wouldn't. I had convinced myself of something because I was afraid that he was my only chance and if I didn't force it to happen I would be alone forever. With Chey it's completely opposite. Nothing is ever forced. It just happens. I've never worried for once whether or not we'll be together. It seems to just be encoded somewhere in my mind that it will happen. I don't ever have to question and I don't ever have to worry or think twice. Last night I was sitting next to him talking with his family. I forget sometimes that they aren't my family (yet lol). When I'm with him (especially when we're sitting with our families) this thought often runs through my mind, "This is right." It's not a matter of "if" I will be with him, its a matter of when.

I know how old I am and I know that most, if not all, of you reading this are rolling your eyes at how naive I am for saying all this. But when you know, you know. Obviously if I wasn't so convinced I wouldn't post something like this on the internet. People often question others my age, my own father thinks I'm to young to know what love is (seems a little hypocritical since my mom was 18 when she met my dad). Here's some food for thought though. You often hear about the strong and lasting impressions of the spirit when it gives prompting such as going on a mission or things of that sort. Why is it so much harder to believe someone's prompting of finding their soul mate?

No Matter What I Love Him

So last night was...interesting...lots of things happened that were..well..interesting!! Go figure. So originally Me, Chey, Shelby, and Wes were going to left hand bowl against each other. Shelby panzied out..she was sick :( so Chey and I had the night to ourselves. Little did I know I was going to recieve an all night long beating from him. After I told him that Shelby wouldn't be coming to bowl he grabbed my phone to text her. So we got into this wrestling match over the phone. Chey had me pinned and I was trying to get away and the next thing I know his elbow is ramming me in the nose..ouch. I thought it was broken..seriously. After he had his menacing way with me he went after Shaniqua!!! Poor Shaniqua!!! She was in pain for most of the night. Once we were done wrestling we decided to go bowling. On the way to the alley we came across an elevator. Chey likes to push me out...apparently Tubby likes the elevator to himslef. So sad. Well usually one of us stops the door before it closes and we both hop in and makeou...i mean wait patiently for the doors to open at our destination. Well instead of fighting back to get in the elevator I patiently waited thinking that Chey would stop the door and let me in. But alas he didn't. I was so sad. I had to ride down all by myself! With a creepo who got in on the floor below us. GAHHH! I could've been raped! Well anyways. Usually I kill Chey when we go bowling but apparently my winning streak is on hold because he beat me in both games we played!!! That's 3 games in a row! So as you can see I was beat all night last night. Horrible. HAHA Hopefully everyone knows this is all just in good fun. These things really did happen but that's how Chey and I are...we beat the crap out of each other. Not really but we're playful. Last night was fun. I just hope Shaniqua isn't to upset with Chey! But I'll love him no matter what. Even if he is beating me at bowling right now :(

WHAT THE %$#

So all if you watch the great tv show House and keep up with it you found out that Dr. Kutner killed himself. what the heck this is so stupid i was so upset.. he hasnt even really been on the show for that long. im so confused so if you watch the show and you know why in the world they killed him off please let me know. and know what are they going to do is house going to go through another whole trial of hiring people. and how do they go through a whole session not showing anything of kutner wanting to commit suicide.

and know what the heck is up Taubs butt for some odd reason he has really turned into a heartless person on the show. like house is rude about things and just blunt but Taubs lately has just been an a$$ like seriously. your co-worker commits suicide and you dont even give a crap and dont even show to his funeral. ok sorry i know its just a show and anything can happen in movies and shows cuz what the heck its not real life and they can write the script how ever they feel.

SUCH AN AMAZING NIGHT

So tonight is our annul Friday night bowling night and for the past 3 months i have been crammed every single night. well tonight was finally a different story tonight I WON!!!!!! well i know its not much to celebrate over but hey for me this is after being brutally destroyed by your girlfriend and then having her mother make fun of you every time just tops it off.

well i know its not much but i just thought i would share that i can actually win once in a while..

Just a Little Something

Chey,
Though I tell you often during the day I just wanted you to know how much a love you. Without you I honestly don't know what I would do. You are everything I have ever hoped for and I'm lucky that I found you when I did. There are people out there who spend endless amounts of time trying to find the perfect person: their soulmate. I feel fortunate that I have found you at such an early point of my life. Though there was a short amount I had to be without you I am glad that I can spend the rest of my life in your arms. You are truly a blessing and I hope you know that. You are my best friend and the love of my life. I love when we are together and I can barely stand it when we are apart. Though the time we have spent together has been short I feel like I have known you for a life time. I have never been able to connect to someone the way I have with you. You do so much for me and I am eternally greatful for that. I hope that I am everything you want and need me to be. I can't wait to spend eternity with you :-*

Love Alix

New Goal

We are in serious need for some pictures together so hopefully by making the goal to take one pic every night we'll be able to stick to it and get some good pics!! YAY FOR PICTURES!!

Don't Pee On My Leg and Tell Me It's Raining

This morning was such an amazing morning it was unbelievable. i bet your wondering what happened but i dont know if you deserve to know what happened its to amazing it will just shock your mind. ok maybe not it shocked mine but it probably means nothing to you and you will most likely think im just a big panzie but think what you want :) i already get made fun of by my amazing girlfriend.


this morning wasnt one of my usual mornings most of the time i wake up late of course then get ready and make it to school all in 20 mins well today was slightly different. this morning i was rolling out of bed at 7:40 so i thought i was going to be late to my class normally i wouldnt care if im late or not to class but this class is a little different we can only be absent 3 times through the whole semester or we fail well i already have 2 i think. i dont know actually i better check that so that i dont have to take this class again. but anyways i surprisingly got dressed and got to school in about 15 mins. so i ran to class and out side was sitting a couple of kids for my class. my first thought was "oh thank goodness she still isnt here im safe" that thought quickly went out of my mind when i got the dreadful news.... CLASS WAS CANCELED!!!!!! What the ..... crap.



so all my rushing trying to get to class so i dont miss another day so i can stay in school and get my degree in brilliance was a complete and total waste of my perfectly earned extra hour of sleep. that i have been longing for but what the hey life goes on.



The other day i had my History Exam, ok history used to be a very interesting subject to me learning how everything has changed and how far we have came in the last 100 years. well this like umm 6 weeks has completely ruined that thought process of thinking for me. i have this one teacher he knows what he is talking about but the way he brings it about it so stupid. this teacher has this book that he teaches out of that makes no sence its a book just about people that did something that makes no sence that was so pointless. like these last two people that i read about were these two women fighting about womens rights simple answer right there they shouldnt have any... (jk im not like that and i just wanted to say that since only 3 girls read this thing). to make things even better tho he was the one that wrote this book that he teaches out of so ya i know its college but still it would be nice to somewhat learn about some important events rather than learning about "someone who was effect by the civil war becuase there grandfather died which made him upset so his wife left him cuz he was so moopy so she found someone in the north and shacked up with him and her husband was mad so killed Lincoln because his wife left him for someone in the north."


I know your probably like whats the point of this whole lame story sorry im getting to it but the thing goes back to the exam that i took. when i took that exam i knew that i wasnt going to do that good on it cuz this class is hard to pay attention to but i thought i would get at least like a d on it or so. well that d went completely out the window and i bombed that test completely i got the lowest score that i have ever gotten before on a exam we will just not say what i got on it to not make me look like such an idiot.

And im not just trying to sound like a big panzie that doesnt know anything. this one kid that we help each other out studied the night before for about 5 hours and he got a low C on the exam just cuz the teacher didnt think the answers didnt have enough detail when most of his answers were a couple of paragraphs long. this teacher is ridicules and never is happy with anything that goes on.