I'm Such A Baby

Yes it's true. I'm a baby...and I'm a tad on the dramatic side. CHey is going on vacation for 6 days and even though its not THAT long I'm still not looking forward to it. Not to mention, it's bad enough I won't get to see him but I won't really get to talk to him either since he'll be on a friggen boat. Sheesh this is going to such butt for reals. Like I said i realize I'm a baby so you don't have to tell me. It's just hard knowing that we've never gone longer than a day without seeing each other and no more that a few hours without talking to each other and now we have to do 6 days. And that's just the warm up. Wait until later in the summer when he'll be gone for multiple weeks at a time. I think I better get that second job or I'll go insane!

I love you babe and I'll miss you. Be safe and come back soon!!!

Wow Mom Wow

This morning I got up at 8:30 for work. As I was walking out the door I realized I didn't have to be in for another hour!!! Lame. I was already dressed so I couldn't go back to sleep so I was dead tired at work today. Luckily I didn't have to do anything at work really. That was nice. But i realized that I have some major personal issues that I need to fix. No body's perfect right. Especially me. After work I went home and showered then went to Shelby's. She fed me. It was delish!! We got to talk and everything which was good :) talking to Shelby is always awesome. Then we went to a party at a friends house. I saw my ex there. He wasn't supposed to be invited. After that we were all supposed to go hang out. All being Shelby, my ex, my bf, one of my bf's friends, and some other people. Here's a little tid bit about me. I hate disappointing people. All people. I hate confrontation to. I'm not a door mat or a panzy, if it's truly important I will stand up for myself and what I believe in, but if it's something stupid (like people getting pissed cuz I won't come hang out) I get uspet. One of the most important people in my life is Chey and I care a great deal about how he feels and what he thinks. Obviously I would not want to disappoint him. Shelby is my best friend. No matter what I don't know where I'd be without her. Obviously I would not want to disappoint her. My ex and the others didn't weigh as heavy on my mind, however regardless of how high the are on my priority list I don't like having bad feelings with people. My solution was to text Shelby and explain. She understood and everything worked out.

Lately I feel like I've just been screwing up. It seems like no matter what I do I'm hurting or upsetting someone. There seems to be no middle ground. I feel like the people in my life are falling away from me and I will end up alone very soon. Regardless of what anyone says I still feel this way. I'm tougher on myself than anyone ever will be on me and there are times in my life where I just don't feel like I deserve anything I have and as a result I feel I will be stripped of everything. I need to do something to regain my hope and sense of security because right now its just not here.

P.S. Please do not comment on this post. That's not code for please do comment. Not to hurt anyone's feelings but I don't really want input on this. My blog is my journal and though its a public affair sometimes I just need to get my thoughts out without having commentary. I know its quite drab but tomorrow's a new day and I will get over it.

Celebration Of Life

Lately I have been pondering somethings. It often occurs to me that we act certain ways in certain situation because we are trained to do so. Think about it. when we were little we absorbed everything we saw. That translated to how we would feel about those same situations now. A close friend of mine is coping with a death in her family. Today her status update was "Celebration of Life, service at the church then back to my house." The first part got me thinking.

Celebration of Life

No matter what society does I think we will always associate mourning with death. That is of course human nature to want to be with someone you just lost and not have that opportunity. But death should be looked at differently. As members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints we know that we will return to live with Heavenly Father, Christ, and our family. So why not look at death as a Celebration of Life. Not only that, but remember that the person you are mourning is in paradise. That person is with God and our Savior. He is where he is supposed to be and he is beyond happy. One day you will join him too. This is nothing you haven't heard, but I felt inclined to post it.

Weird Post

This might be one of the weirdest posts I'm going to put up on here but I don't care.

Look at this kid. You can not look at this picture and have any other thought running through your mind other than, "Holy eff he is HAWT!" Srsly.

I told you this was going to be a weird post!

Anyways. When Chey and I first started dating I for some reason told him he should put a paperbag over his head. (I was teasing him of course) Either I said it or he said it and I agreed. But anyways, I am and will forever be mocked for my horrific comment about the bag. I try to tell him all the time that I was kidding because I think he is a stud muffin but he never believes me. So maybe if I devote an entire post to his stud muffiness he'll finally believe me.

Anyways, back to Chey. Let me tell you a story :)

Over the summer in probably August Chey came into DI while I was working. I looked like POO!!!! Srsly. I don't get dressed up for DI, there's just no point. So I felt foolish when he came in and stood next to my register and made fun of me! The whole time he was standing in front of me I kept thinking, "Holy crap this guy is gorgeous." When I went on my break on of my co-workers asked if I knew Chey and I said yes. She says, "Girl he is HOT you better get with him!!!" Bahaha when I came back to DI the first thing I said to her was, "I got with him!!"

By the way that whole story is in my journal! I wrote (and I directly quote) "He is the hottest kid I have ever seen in my life."

So anyways this whole post started because when I log onto my blog, on the right hand side is the picture I posted above. It's got a caption but I mainly put it up there so I can stare at him while I'm reading my past blogs lol. Hopefully he'll stop giving me so much crap about the bag joke now!

HELP!

All in favor of Chey posting a blog because he hasn't in 10,000 years should leave a lovely comment asking him to do so!!! :)

Caution to Girlfriends Everywhere!!

Last night Chey came over to hang out. He was going to make me the best brownies ever that SHelby and I discovered a while ago. They're seriously amazing and he's amazing for making them for me. Well anyways we went to the store and got everything...except butter..so we couldn't make them. So sad but he promised he'd make them for me tonight!! So you're probably wondering why I'm telling you this since the title of this post is a caution. No I'm not trying to warn you about guys who bake delicious brownies..although you don't want to get fat off of them..I'm telling you this because I want you to know how amazing I think Chey is before I tell you the caution.

So now that your fully convinced that he's awesome here we go. Last night around 11 Chey and I fell asleep. We were exhausted so it happens. Anyways, he is supposed to leave by 12 so we set an alarm. Apparently his phone was on silent so we never heard it go off. At 12:12 I woke up realizing what time it was. Usually I try to wake Chey up and it takes him a while but eventually he gets up. Last night I rolled over and kissed him on the cheek. He did that little hand wave..ya know the one where you push someone away. But wait it gets better. After he waved me off he had enough energy in his tired little body to say "STOP" and rolled over leaving me all by myself. So feeling a little saddened I got up and went to make my bed figuring that Chey would wake up realizing I wasn't next to him. NOPE! After I finished my bed I came out to find him sprawled out on the couch sleeping like a baby. I sat next to him and figured I'd just finish writing a paper I have due. I opened my computer (hoping the light would wake him up) but Chey looked up at me as if to say "Shut that off can't you see I'm sleeping?" and he rolled over. After many more failed attempts to wake him up he finally realized what time it was and got up.

Here's the warning girls...don't ever try to wake a sleeping boy. It just ends bad. Now obviously Chey didn't mean to roll over..he was sleeping and I know that. But I still had to share this little story.

Broken

I'm at a crossroad. The problem isn't having to choose. Because if that were the case there wouldn't be a problem. The problem is the crossraod isn't mine. It's somebody elses and while that person is choosing a decision that will influence their life forever it is often forgotten that it will influence mine. I'm not saying that this is about me, because its not, and I will support the person no matter what decision they make, I'm just saying that this is hard. This is harder than I thought it was going to be. I know that I said I wanted this to happen and I meant it. And deep down I know I still feel that way. But such a large part of me is scared to death right now. I know what I want, I know how I want my life to end up. I've known it for my entire life. I'm not the one I'm worried about. I'm worried about his choice. And I know what your thinking: Everything happens for a reason, No matter what it will work out, Just have faith.

Can anybody give me an answer I can actually use. I'm so afraid that he will change his mind. What if while he's gone he realizes I'm not what he wanted. What if he comes back and we're so different he gives up. I know what I'll do while he's gone, and I know he'll be on my mind and in my heart every second until I can hold him again, but what if it's not like that for him. As I was sitting and thinking today the thought came to my mind that I'm so far in love with him that I don't want him around. I need him around. I don't want to feel his touch. I need to. I don't want to spend my life with him. I need to. I can't imagine God putting someone like him into my life only to rip him out. And I can not even begin to explain the pain I would feel if that were to happen. But maybe it will. Maybe I don't deserve him and sooner or later he'll realize that. All I can say is I can't give up because of a fear of what he might do. If he does decided I'm not what he wants I'll be there until I have to hear that. I'm just scared to death that I will.

What will I do without him? Even if its just for 2 years. I can barely go a few hours without seeing him. And the only reason I can do that is because I can still talk to him constantly. But whats going to happen when all I get is a letter? What will I do when I can't say hi, i love you, i miss you, good night, or even good morning. The small gestures I'm taking for granted now will soon be taken away. Instead of a kiss or even just a hug I'll be left staring at a calendar wishing time would go by sooner. People before me have done this so there should be no excuse why I can't, but what if I'm not strong enough? I feel like I'm destroying his chances by being so upset right now. I feel like acting this way will only keep him from doing something great, that I know he should do, that I want him to do. I'm not trying to be selfish and I would never let stop him from doing this. I just want to know that I can do it to. I know I need to be strong and supportive and I will be, but right now it's so hard. I guess all I can do is pray. Pray for strength, pray for guidance, pray that everything works out in the end.

Horrible Dream/Great Realization

I'm pretty known for having the weirdest dreams you can think of. Honestly. I've had dreams about all sorts of off the wall things. I dream about the people in my life more often than not and lately there has been one person that appears quite often in my dreams: Mr. Amazing. However, last night I had a dream that made me wake up crying. It was so horrible. I was sitting in sacrament and Chey was at the front giving a talk. We were texting and out of no where he tells me he's leaving. My heart broke! Omg it was so upseting. I spent the rest of the dream trying to send him a text message about how much I loved him and how I didn't want this to happen but everytime I hit send the text never went through. Sheesh. I'm still upset about the thought of it.

I've been doing some thinking lately. I'm in a position I've never been in before and its strange. Through out our lives we come across a variety of people to date. Though they end in heart break they serve a very important purpose: they bring us closer to the person we will spend eternity with. Though the people around me were certain they had found "the one" when we were freshmen in high school, I knew that I hadn't. The only person I had this thought about was the boyfriend I had previous to Chey. We obviously broke up though (thank goodness) and I am now dating the person I know is right for me. How do I know though? I'll tell you. Aside from the insanely strong gut feeling I get everytime I think about marrying Mr. Amazing, there are some things that prove everything a little bit more.

1. Since I can rememeber I have been writing a list in my mind of the qualities my future husband will have. The list is rather large, I'm a picky person and I've been adding to the list from a very young age (even as a child I've been a hopeless romantic). Anyways the list includes some obvious important qualities and even some shallow ones. But hey its my list right. I always wanted a soccer player, kind and loving, someone incredibly good looking (obviously), someone who could make me laugh. There are other qualities I have that I can't put into words. It's hard to explain but I knew the feeling I would get being around this person. Now my last bf (let's just call him X) had some (yet few) of these qualities. About a year ago I had made a marriage time capsul that contained all the qualities of my future husband. I was shocked at myself when I realized that every quality I had put down was one of X's qualities BUT NOT ANY of the qualities I had originally wanted. I had settled. When I look at Chey though I don't have to settle for anything. Even before we started dating I knew that he was someone amazing. We would sit and text all night about random things and without knowing it he would unveil one of his qualities that matched exactly what I wanted. He even has qualities that I never put in to words what I wanted but that make up my perfect future husband.

2. When I was with X I was constantly a nervous wreck. I always had to worry about whether or not we would be together. "If I do this will it ruin everything?" That was a constant day-to-day question that ran through my head with every move I made. And I knew deep down that even though I wanted to marry him I wouldn't. I had convinced myself of something because I was afraid that he was my only chance and if I didn't force it to happen I would be alone forever. With Chey it's completely opposite. Nothing is ever forced. It just happens. I've never worried for once whether or not we'll be together. It seems to just be encoded somewhere in my mind that it will happen. I don't ever have to question and I don't ever have to worry or think twice. Last night I was sitting next to him talking with his family. I forget sometimes that they aren't my family (yet lol). When I'm with him (especially when we're sitting with our families) this thought often runs through my mind, "This is right." It's not a matter of "if" I will be with him, its a matter of when.

I know how old I am and I know that most, if not all, of you reading this are rolling your eyes at how naive I am for saying all this. But when you know, you know. Obviously if I wasn't so convinced I wouldn't post something like this on the internet. People often question others my age, my own father thinks I'm to young to know what love is (seems a little hypocritical since my mom was 18 when she met my dad). Here's some food for thought though. You often hear about the strong and lasting impressions of the spirit when it gives prompting such as going on a mission or things of that sort. Why is it so much harder to believe someone's prompting of finding their soul mate?

No Matter What I Love Him

So last night was...interesting...lots of things happened that were..well..interesting!! Go figure. So originally Me, Chey, Shelby, and Wes were going to left hand bowl against each other. Shelby panzied out..she was sick :( so Chey and I had the night to ourselves. Little did I know I was going to recieve an all night long beating from him. After I told him that Shelby wouldn't be coming to bowl he grabbed my phone to text her. So we got into this wrestling match over the phone. Chey had me pinned and I was trying to get away and the next thing I know his elbow is ramming me in the nose..ouch. I thought it was broken..seriously. After he had his menacing way with me he went after Shaniqua!!! Poor Shaniqua!!! She was in pain for most of the night. Once we were done wrestling we decided to go bowling. On the way to the alley we came across an elevator. Chey likes to push me out...apparently Tubby likes the elevator to himslef. So sad. Well usually one of us stops the door before it closes and we both hop in and makeou...i mean wait patiently for the doors to open at our destination. Well instead of fighting back to get in the elevator I patiently waited thinking that Chey would stop the door and let me in. But alas he didn't. I was so sad. I had to ride down all by myself! With a creepo who got in on the floor below us. GAHHH! I could've been raped! Well anyways. Usually I kill Chey when we go bowling but apparently my winning streak is on hold because he beat me in both games we played!!! That's 3 games in a row! So as you can see I was beat all night last night. Horrible. HAHA Hopefully everyone knows this is all just in good fun. These things really did happen but that's how Chey and I are...we beat the crap out of each other. Not really but we're playful. Last night was fun. I just hope Shaniqua isn't to upset with Chey! But I'll love him no matter what. Even if he is beating me at bowling right now :(

WHAT THE %$#

So all if you watch the great tv show House and keep up with it you found out that Dr. Kutner killed himself. what the heck this is so stupid i was so upset.. he hasnt even really been on the show for that long. im so confused so if you watch the show and you know why in the world they killed him off please let me know. and know what are they going to do is house going to go through another whole trial of hiring people. and how do they go through a whole session not showing anything of kutner wanting to commit suicide.

and know what the heck is up Taubs butt for some odd reason he has really turned into a heartless person on the show. like house is rude about things and just blunt but Taubs lately has just been an a$$ like seriously. your co-worker commits suicide and you dont even give a crap and dont even show to his funeral. ok sorry i know its just a show and anything can happen in movies and shows cuz what the heck its not real life and they can write the script how ever they feel.

SUCH AN AMAZING NIGHT

So tonight is our annul Friday night bowling night and for the past 3 months i have been crammed every single night. well tonight was finally a different story tonight I WON!!!!!! well i know its not much to celebrate over but hey for me this is after being brutally destroyed by your girlfriend and then having her mother make fun of you every time just tops it off.

well i know its not much but i just thought i would share that i can actually win once in a while..

Just a Little Something

Chey,
Though I tell you often during the day I just wanted you to know how much a love you. Without you I honestly don't know what I would do. You are everything I have ever hoped for and I'm lucky that I found you when I did. There are people out there who spend endless amounts of time trying to find the perfect person: their soulmate. I feel fortunate that I have found you at such an early point of my life. Though there was a short amount I had to be without you I am glad that I can spend the rest of my life in your arms. You are truly a blessing and I hope you know that. You are my best friend and the love of my life. I love when we are together and I can barely stand it when we are apart. Though the time we have spent together has been short I feel like I have known you for a life time. I have never been able to connect to someone the way I have with you. You do so much for me and I am eternally greatful for that. I hope that I am everything you want and need me to be. I can't wait to spend eternity with you :-*

Love Alix

New Goal

We are in serious need for some pictures together so hopefully by making the goal to take one pic every night we'll be able to stick to it and get some good pics!! YAY FOR PICTURES!!

Don't Pee On My Leg and Tell Me It's Raining

This morning was such an amazing morning it was unbelievable. i bet your wondering what happened but i dont know if you deserve to know what happened its to amazing it will just shock your mind. ok maybe not it shocked mine but it probably means nothing to you and you will most likely think im just a big panzie but think what you want :) i already get made fun of by my amazing girlfriend.


this morning wasnt one of my usual mornings most of the time i wake up late of course then get ready and make it to school all in 20 mins well today was slightly different. this morning i was rolling out of bed at 7:40 so i thought i was going to be late to my class normally i wouldnt care if im late or not to class but this class is a little different we can only be absent 3 times through the whole semester or we fail well i already have 2 i think. i dont know actually i better check that so that i dont have to take this class again. but anyways i surprisingly got dressed and got to school in about 15 mins. so i ran to class and out side was sitting a couple of kids for my class. my first thought was "oh thank goodness she still isnt here im safe" that thought quickly went out of my mind when i got the dreadful news.... CLASS WAS CANCELED!!!!!! What the ..... crap.



so all my rushing trying to get to class so i dont miss another day so i can stay in school and get my degree in brilliance was a complete and total waste of my perfectly earned extra hour of sleep. that i have been longing for but what the hey life goes on.



The other day i had my History Exam, ok history used to be a very interesting subject to me learning how everything has changed and how far we have came in the last 100 years. well this like umm 6 weeks has completely ruined that thought process of thinking for me. i have this one teacher he knows what he is talking about but the way he brings it about it so stupid. this teacher has this book that he teaches out of that makes no sence its a book just about people that did something that makes no sence that was so pointless. like these last two people that i read about were these two women fighting about womens rights simple answer right there they shouldnt have any... (jk im not like that and i just wanted to say that since only 3 girls read this thing). to make things even better tho he was the one that wrote this book that he teaches out of so ya i know its college but still it would be nice to somewhat learn about some important events rather than learning about "someone who was effect by the civil war becuase there grandfather died which made him upset so his wife left him cuz he was so moopy so she found someone in the north and shacked up with him and her husband was mad so killed Lincoln because his wife left him for someone in the north."


I know your probably like whats the point of this whole lame story sorry im getting to it but the thing goes back to the exam that i took. when i took that exam i knew that i wasnt going to do that good on it cuz this class is hard to pay attention to but i thought i would get at least like a d on it or so. well that d went completely out the window and i bombed that test completely i got the lowest score that i have ever gotten before on a exam we will just not say what i got on it to not make me look like such an idiot.

And im not just trying to sound like a big panzie that doesnt know anything. this one kid that we help each other out studied the night before for about 5 hours and he got a low C on the exam just cuz the teacher didnt think the answers didnt have enough detail when most of his answers were a couple of paragraphs long. this teacher is ridicules and never is happy with anything that goes on.

Have I Told You...

Sitting on the couch last night I looked over at you and immediately my heart sped up and I could feel the butterflies in my stomach. I realized how much I love you.

Z Like in Zebra

So this past week i found out the hard way that you cant procrastinate like you could in high school. Only tho today is the 2nd day of school this week i have had about 3 weeks to work on this project that i had to finish for my communications class that was due was supposed to be finished today i was debating on just grabbing a cup and putting dirt in it hoping i would just get some points for it :). Last night i finally started to work on my homework that is due but i didn't feel like starting it till like 8 is or so not the smartest thing i have done but also not the dumbest so im still in the clear.
The project that i finished at 2 or maybe 3 this morning i was supposed to write a speech on how to do something or a demonstration speech well i thought that would be pretty easy to do but it doesnt help that every English teacher that i have had was a coach and so everything that i have learned on writing essays and outlines means nothing to college teachers cuz its wrong. thank goodness i have such an amazing smart girlfriend or i dont think i would be able to have finished this in time.
Last night i went over to Chunkys house cuz there was a slight problem with her car that some how ended up being my fault i dont know i think its just cuz im a guy and its a whole lot easier to blame a guy just because we are guys.... but i will take the blame for this cuz i owe her so much cuz she did the most difficult part of my project for me she made these wonderful brownies that i think gave me at least a... lets just say a better grade than i would have gotten if i would have made them, everyone loved them. While she was making the brownies i was working on fixing an outline that i had to have and the actually write out of the speech. i bet your wondering why i was up till 3 working on this if all i had to do was those 2 little things. well for me i have never been good at writing essays i have no idea why i can BS my way through almost anything but when it comes to putting it down on paper i can do it for the life of me.
Ok back to the story, so as Alix was cooking and i was working some of the time i get side tracked really easily idk i dont think i have an attention problem but if so it makes it alot more fun. ok sorry bad side note there so we worked very hard at everything and then Alix needed to go to bed so i went home to finish my homework and worked on it oh so hard all night till i finished maybe watching a little bit of family guy.
I woke up this morning and thought i was going to be late cuz i needed to pick up the brownies from Chunkys house cuz they were falling apart was we tryied to take them out of the pans so i thought i was going to be late and miss my time to give my speech. Barely making it there in time i got up there thinking that i wasnt going to have enough to say and finish before i was done well no instead i had to go a minute and 40 seconds over and for every 30 seconds we get docked 2 points not much but 2 points can be the difference from a B to an A.
Now im sitting in my lovely philosophy class that i have no idea whats going on. i feel like a dog chasing a car down the rode i dont understand what im doing but i will just go along with it for now. like today is really pointless in this class cuz all we are doing is coloring circles what ever i might be dropping this class anyways.

thank you so much for everything that you that you do for me love you are amazing. you have no idea how much every little thing you do for me means. i love you so much, i cant wait to see you :-*

Tubby's Answers

What have you accomplished in your life that you pride yourself on?
Being able go through high school with all the different things that I did and be able to say that I quite that it didn’t completely take my life and I have control over it again.

What is your biggest aspiration in life?
To be able to find someone to have a family with and be able to provide for them and make them happy as I can and always be able to keep them together.

When did you first realize you wanted to date me?
June 6th 2008 at the Las Vegas airport when we were on the plan you were 4 rows up and to there right of me….. JK the first couple times hanging out with you was when I realized it but didn’t think you would want me around this long.

Where is one place you want to travel at some point in your life?
I want to be able to go to England.

What's the most dangerous thing you've ever done?
Letting things control my life putting myself in a position where I had no control of what I was doing and also putting others around me a risk.

What's one thing you want to improve on before you die?
I want to be able to be more caring and know when then the right time is to say things and do things

What's one thing that you want to teach your children?
I want to be able to teach them to love everyone for what and who they are and family is one of the most important thing to have cuz they will be with you forever and can be your best friend. Friends will come and go and u will love and hate each other but family are always there for one another as long as you don’t abuse it

If your soul mate died would you re-marry?
I don’t think I could. That was the one person that I was supposed to be with forever and I wouldn’t want anyone to try to take that place. I fell for her loved her and wanted to be with her how could I want to be with anyone else.

If you died would you want her to re-marry?
The a choice for her to make. Im not going to tell her that she cant if she feels like she needs someone in her life I wont complain cuz I was the first in her life and hopefully I am sealed and she wont seal to anyone else.

What is something you truly believe in?
Abstinence (bahahaha)

What is something your strongly against?
Woman’s Rights (hahaha)

What do you want people to remember you for?
For being someone that was a friend and loving. I wouldn’t want people to know me for someone famous, that never last cuz someone will always come in and take your place. Love and a great friendship can never be forgotten.

At this point do you feel like you are where you're supposed to be in your life?
Ya I do I feel like I have and im on the right way to where I need to go now.

What do you have a testimony of?
I have a Testimony of Joseph Smith and that he was an amazing man to be able to go as a teen and strongly believe that god sent an angel and told him the message the we have today and not let anyone tell him that he was wrong. And to go from that day forth and be persecuted every day of his life and never backing down and only fighting back by the words of god. And even when he knew he was going to die he wouldn’t deny anything that he had said. He brought forth the opportunity that we have to be able to learn and grow about god and know of his teachings. He started one of the most powerful churches on this earth today and he did it in one of the most difficult times of the century. To be able to do that you must have complete faith and be broken of Christ to do every thing that he must in order to start the church that we have today.

What is one thing you want to take away from being with me?
Not being so stressed and not look at others from pass experiences be able to live my life in the present one day at a time. To be more out going and know what I want more in life.

What is one thing you want me to take away from being with you?
That you are an amazing girl and not to let anyone tell you or put you down don’t settle go for everything that you can and deserve. Girls are angels like I said make sure you are being treated like on.

What is the most important thing you learned from your parents?
That even tho they probably didn’t go through the same things that I did. They know what’s best for me and what I need to do to be able to grow and progress in life and what lays ahead of me.

Chunky's Answers

What have you accomplished in your life that you pride yourself on?
I stayed true to my morals. Even though the church wasn't in my life for a period of time and I strayed a bit I new the difference between right and wrong and I stayed true to that dispite was my friends were doing.

What is your biggest aspiration in life?
I want to find my soul mate and be sealed to him for eternity and have a family. I want to continue my life completely consumed in love and happiness.

When did you first realize you wanted to date me?
At Shelby's birthday party. That was the first time I really payed attention to the wonderful person that was right in front of my face.

Where is one place you want to travel at some point in your life?
I want to go back to Paris. I really didn't appreciate it at all the first time and I'd really like to go back to see everything again and take it in for what it is. And even though it's cliche` Paris really is romantic so when I go back I'd like to go with someone I love.

What's the most dangerous thing you've ever done?
Ummm I don't know actually. Probably texting while I'm driving. Ya that almost killed me once..and you'd think I'd learn but I didn't.

What's one thing you want to improve on before you die?
I want to be stonger in the church. There are things that I tend to skimp out on because of stupid earthly things. I want to become more perfected in that and be better prepared.

What's one thing that you want to teach your children?
I want to teach my children the gospel. It wasn't a part of my life until much later and because of that I've had to deal with things that other people haven't. I want them to be able to know the gospel for their entire lives and I want them to know how important family is. If they take nothing but that I could be happy.

If your soul mate died would you re-marry?
No. I completely believe that everyone has a soul mate: a perfect match and one person they are meant to spend their life with. If something were to happen to him I wouldn't be able to re-marry. I would feel as if I were cheating the other person and myself.

If you died would you want him to re-marry?
I would want him to be happy. End of story. If that means him re-marrying than that would be fine with me, but I would hope he would stay sealed to me.

What is something you truly believe in?
I believe that everything happens for a reason. The trials we go through and the mistakes we make all lead us to where we are supposed to be. If we were all perfect there would be no reason for us to be here. I made mistakes and I fell away from the church but that made me stronger and that made me really appreciate the church.

What is something your strongly against?
Underestimating people.

What do you want people to remember you for?
I want people to remember me for being a good person. When I was younger my goal was to be america's sweetheart. I wanted to be nice to everyone and friends with everyone. I'm still working on that, but hopefully I'll get it right eventually. I wouldn't want to leave here with people hurt by something I said or did at any point in my life.

At this point do you feel like you are where you're supposed to be in your life?
Yes. I think about this a lot. It's funny how a chain of events that seem so insignificant at the time and lead you to exactly where you're supposed to be. This really helps me think positively of people to. Not that I don't normally, but sometimes people come into our lives and really hurt us. But that hurt leads us to someone that we will love even more than the last and for that I'm grateful.

What do you have a testimony of?
God has a plan for everyone of us. Without a doubt this is the one thing I've always believed in my entire life.

What is one thing you want to take away from being with me?
Already I feel like I've taken something away from being with you. Through your example I want to be a better person. I especially want to have a heart like yours. You love so many people with your whole heart. You are someone that I always want in my life because of this. You are someone that I want as a bestfriend, husband, and father for my children. I know that they would always be cared for and loved with a father like you.

What is one thing you want me to take away from being with you?
I want you to truly know what an amazing person you are. If there is ever a time when you are doubting you should look at yourself the way I see you. You truly are amazing and an example to those around you. You are strong, faithful, loving, gentle, passionate, smart, fun, sensitive, funny, and so much more.

What is the most important thing you learned from your parents?
How to be strong. My family had our tough times but that only taught me how to be stronger and really believe in myself. People are always going to try to put you down and stand in your way but with the right people in your life you can overcome any obstacle.

Would you wait for me?
I feel like I have already waited for you. I prayed to find someone as perfect as you and I waited a long time untill that prayer was answered. I would wait an entire life time just to spend one day with you.

I Have Some Questions For You!

Today while I was doing that survey about you I started thinking that there are things that I don't know about you. That's only natural, but I came up with some questions. Beware though these questions aren't the easiest, but that's why I wanted to ask them. So have fun! I can't wait to read the answers! And if you want I'll answer these questions or anything else you wanna ask :) I love you!

What have you accomplished in your life that you pride yourself on?

What is your biggest aspiration in life?

When did you first realize you wanted to date me?

Where is one place you want to travel at some point in your life?

What's the most dangerous thing you've ever done?

What's one thing you want to improve on before you die?

What's one thing that you want to teach your children?

If your soul mate died would you re-marry?

If you died would you want her to re-marry?

What is something you truly believe in?

What is something your strongly against?

What do you want people to remember you for?

At this point do you feel like you are where you're supposed to be in your life?

What do you have a testimony of?

What is one thing you want to take away from being with me?

What is one thing you want me to take away from being with you?

What is the most important thing you learned from your parents?

STORY TIME!

Right this second I am sitting in biology and I have NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING ON! I think we're talking about photosynthesis! Pshh who needs to pay attention to that? It's all weird plant sun food junky stuff that we've been learning since 3rd grade. Remember the little bean plant? Come on I'm tired of learning about photosynthesis. Ba. So I decided to write a story. This story is based an real people and some true events, but it is totally fictional and in no way jynxing any part of my future just because it is being written on this blog!

Once upon a time, there was a beautiful girl. From a very young age the girl was a hopeless romantic and often pondered about her life with her soul mate. She also started thinking about all the qualitites her soul mate would have. She would lie in bed at night and dream of her love and hope to find him soon. One day the girl was hanging out with her best friend because it was her best friend's birthday. She noticed a boy standing off to the side talking to a few other guys. She had seen this boy before but at that moment she realized that he was someone very special. Months later, after being rejected by the boy and giving up, the boy texted the girl. She was so excited that he wanted to talk to her! They started talking about all kinds of things! They talked everyday for the next few weeks. Eventually, the girl wanted to see the boy. So she tried and tried to get him to hang out with her, but things never seemed to work out. One night though, she finally got to hang out with him. When she saw him that night her heart raced because she had forgotten what a stud muffin he was. She tried to keep her cool the entire night even though she probably failed miserably. Over the next few weeks the boy and the girl started hanging out more and more. They were having so much fun together they couldn't get enough! But then sadly school started and the 2 weren't able to see eachother as much. This made them sad so they decided to run away to a far off land known as Utah so they could go to school together!

The 2 were accepted to school because they are oh so smart and in August they packed up and left. Together they got straight A's and all the teachers wanted to put them in advanced placement prgrams cuz the 2 were just to smart for ordinary classes. All the while the 2 fell more and more in love. The 2 fell so in love that they decided they couldn't stand to be apart at all. One night the boy took the girl out and to her suprise pulled out the most beautiful engagement ring she had ever seen. It was perfect and everything she wanted because the boy was amazing and knew exactly what she wanted! It looked something like this!

Anyways, of course she said yes because she knew from the very beginning that the boy was her soul mate. They went home to visit their families and tell them the news and they were ecsatic! They were married in the temple and were sealed for all of time and eternity!

They moved in together and finished college. They each got a degree in brilliance which they used to get very nice jobs! They made lots of money and used it to buy a ranch that they filled with horses.

Once they were established they started having kids! They're kids were beatiful stud muffins! After many happy years, the kids moved away with their spouses and the 2 were alone again. They retired and spent their days together in soul mate loving bliss! Then they finally passed and were reunited in Heaven where they could be together for all of their days!

THE END!

This Is Not An Insult To Your Intelligence

Hi Tubby!!

This post is especially for you :) Because I was going to say all this in a comment and the thought came to me that its possible you don't even check your blogs for comments. If you don't I encourage you too because Shelby (especially) leaves you many comments on your posts. So ya if you don't check them you should start. If you do and I'm wasting my time byt putting al lthis in a post instead of a comment then oh well. Like the title says this isn't an insult to your intelligence because your very smart! You even kicked my butt on the math act. Anyways. This is what I wanted to say about your post. The first part is hilarious. You think your life is boring but it really isn't my friend. I laughed! It was funny. So you should stop thinking your boring and you should post more blogs so I can giggle. The rest of it..thank you :). Your incredible! That's all I have to say. lol. Oh by the way, the unlikely happened...I cleaned my room! YAY! Ok well whenever your reading this I hope your having an amazing morning/afternoon/evening/night. 831 :)

Is School really that Important????

So this is my first week that i have every single class its going to be a lot of work i don't know if its going to be as fun as i thought it just feels like high school all over again. Except that teachers don't really care and some kids come to class drunk (OK that might not be different for high school but they cant get in trouble). Today i was running a little late for class cuz for some odd reason i couldn't get up so that started me getting out the door later then when i got to school every parking spot was full so i just gave up trying to find a close spot and ended up on the opposite side of the school. thank goodness CSN isn't that big of a school so i could still get to class not to late. So my first class is HIST 102 and lucky half of the class was late anyways so i didn't feel to bad walking into class late. This girl that walked in sat down right behind me and half way through class after we have been talking about everything that we will be going over in HISTORY she finally decides to ask me if this was Business. As i turned around to tell her i realized what was wrong with her either she had to much to drink the night before or shes likes to start her day off with a couple shots of something.



Everyday for the past month my day has been spent waking up working and then hanging out with this perfect girl tonight was a little different i woke up, school, work, and then nothing and that was the disappointing part I came home and sat around and slept. I get to talk to this amazing girl all day and that makes the day so wonderful but being able to see her and spend time with her can make one of the worst days to such a perfect day. Well as you probably already know I didn't get to see her today. The past couple weeks I go over to her house till 10 on the weekdays and a little after 1 on the weekends and with school going on its been worth the lose of sleep that i have gotten its a more reasonable hour of sleep but not the same that i have gotten the past 6 months. Before we started hanging out i would go to bad at maybe 12ish and then wake back up at 12ish which hasn't been my smartest move and now that i have this 9a.m. church schedule it hasn't been the most friendly to me. I missed being with her tonight be i needed to catch up on some zzzz's that i have been missing as well. I know that i might get to see Chunky tomorrow so that's my highlight for tomorrow we will have to see what happens.




Thank you love for what you said today. I do believe you I really do, I just don't know why me. You have everything to offer that anyone could ever ask for. Your perfect I hope that some way i can show you how much you have done for me just be being in my life. 831

Sheesh No One Posts On This Thing Anymore

Last night, Tubby and I were talking about the fact that neither one of us has blogged in forever. I told him that I haven't blogged because I get on to read his blog and when I don't see anything I just turn my computer off. Basically he was doing the same thing. Goodness.

Ok so I decided to share our fabulous Saturday night. (Last Night). Saturdays have kinda become out "date night". Basically the only night that we actually GO OUT and do something instead of being lazy bums and watching movies at my house. So the other day I was brainstorming things we could do and decided it'd be fun if we went to go ride the big shot. Now here's something you should know about me. I'm usually associated with the phrase "all talk and no action." Yep that's me. I talk about doing all kinds of daring stuff but when it comes down to it I chicken out. So anyways, back to last night. So we planned to go down to the strip and ride the big shot. I wasn't nervous at all, I was all excited. Chey was ready to conquer that thing! So we get in the car and we're driving down there and Chey won't shut up about how excited he is to get up there and blah blah blah (ya he's a daredevil what can I say). Well he's talking and says something about heights, and that word, height, registers something in my brain that immediately made my heart drop. Did I forget to mention I'm ridiculously afraid of heights? Ya step ladders scare me. As we're getting off the free way I decided I didn't want to go. Haha. All Talk, No Action. So Chey was very disappointed and he begged and begged to go on it. But he loves me and sacrificed going up there so I wouldn't be scared. If only I could be as brave as my boyfriend. Anyways. We went to see the Bilagio water show which was nice. Then we went to the miracle mile shops and walked around because I'm poor and he's poor. His expenses have probly double or even tripled since he met me. (I hate when he pays I swear..I'm not draining his account on purpose). After that we went to the Paris. Now if you've ever been on the strip and walked from the miracle mile shops to the Paris you proably know that in that short distance 5904375138 people try to give you cards with naked chicks on them. So I decide to make a game out of it and instead of ignoring them I grab every single card I can. I got 25! Remember this detail because it comes in handy later. When we got to the Paris we went to the wedding chapel.

SEE! Awesome wedding chapel! No where near as awesome as the temple, but still awesome because you hold awesome marriagey stuff! Jealous is raging through me right now because I hold no awesom marriagey stuff. Ya I'm a nerd, I'm a girl, I want to be married, in general. That's life get over it. Anways, when we got there we saw this.

We barely missed the dead line DANG IT! So we couldn't get married last night :( oh well. Life sucks and then you die, if I should be that lucky (name that quote!) So we got in the car and went back to Mr. Amazing's house. But we figured out how to cheat the system!! We came back to my house at 11 and watched a movie! But my mom doesn't make him leave till the movies over. So even though curfew is 12 I got to see him till almost 2. :) We are so smart. bwahahaha. Don't roll your eyes at me, if you were 18 and had my ridiculous curfews you would try to cheat the system too! So that was my/our night. OH NO WAIT! I forgot a detail. Remember the 25 cards of nastiness. Well on our way back to the car we had to walk through the porn again so this time Chey grabbed cards. That stinker got 35 cards! 10 more than me! Seriously. Man he totally beat me and I thought for sure I'd win that. Oh well. Next Saturday Mr. Amazing get's to pick what we do so that should be fun. As long as he doesn't pick a movie I think we'll be ok. Hahaha JUST KIDDING! 831 :)

I'm Sorry

I've been acting weird that past couple of days, and for that I'm sorry. It has nothing to do with you or anything. I got upset last night and for some reason it carried over to today. It happens. I'm still sorry though. I know that I'm probably being dramatic and overly sensitive. I'm trying my hardest to make it go away. But I want you to know that what got me through the day was knowing I'd see you. You are incredible and without fail you always make me smile. I know your worried and I know I probly can't say anything to make that go away. Just believe me when I say you are amazing and I'm so happy to finally have someone like you in my life!!

Embarrassing

This is what I've decided. I can be a very self conscious person. Yep its true. I'm not always full of confidence like I pretend to be. The times when I'm most often self conscious is around guys. In the summer before 9th grade I started dating my 3rd boyfriend, but what I like to think of as my first real relationship. I never ever ate in front of him. EVER! To the point where if I was eating something and he walked up, even if I wasn't finished, I would throw it away. How ridiculous is that? Pretty dang if you ask me. My sophomore year when I started dating my next boyfriend the eating thing stuck. But then something new emerged. I met my boyfriend in choir and so once we started dating I refused to sing in front of him. I just about killed my grades with this. If I ever stood next to him I would lip sync the whole time. For our final exams we had to sing in quartets and because that's a small enough group that people could hear me I wouldn't sing, and then I'd get a crappy grade on my exam.

Last night I walked Chey out and we were standing by my car. He was trying to mess with me and I flinched out of the way and smacked my head into my car antenna! How embarrassing, he could not stop laughing at me. This is only one of the many embarrassing things I do in front of him. But, unlike the usual me, it doesn't bother me. I feel so comfortable around him. It's not like I throw everything out the window, I still try my best to..impress I guess would be the best word. But life happens, embarrassing things happen, and I just let them. It's funny and it gives him something to tease me about later. And everyone knows teasing = love. Anyways, I'm glad that I've finally found someone that I don't have to feel so self conscious around. Thankfully he likes me just for me, for my crazy, random, clumsy, fatty, horrible driving self.

A few weeks ago (almost a month ago actually) I wrote a story about a boy and a girl and at the end I said I would come back and post the end to the story. When I wrote that I had every intention of writing an ending. But this morning I was thinking about that blog and the fact that there isn't an end to the story. That story might not have an ending for me to write. In fact, the way I see it, the only way I can finish that is if Chey and I break up and stop talking to each other completely. But right now, that's not the case. Then I thought about how amazing it is that every day we're writing that story. The conversations we have, the places we go, the events that take place, the memories that are forming are all contributing to our story. How exciting! So far its turning out to be a very nice story...an amazing story. I feel like I'm really wearing out the word amazing. I need a new word. Something that covers all forms of the perfection that he is. I don't think there's a word in the english dictionary that describes him. Maybe I'll try to come up with my very own word. Oh wait I got side tracked. I meant to tie in a song lyric because, come on, this is me and I tie everything together with a song lyric. In the song Must've Done Something Right (on the playlist of this blog) it says: and I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life.

Yup it stands true. It's all part of the story. Hopefully tonight will be the new best day of my life and I'll be able to see Chey. We'll see though. In the mean time I'll think of that word.

Je vous aime tres beaucoup. 831

What a Night

I have known that i have like The Most Amazing Girlfriend EVER don't get me wrong i have known but tonight i really really realized it. With school starting and both of us working completely different hours the time that i get to spend with Chunky, this week was the first week that we had to find out how and when we were going to possible spend time with each other. The first couple of nights it was hard just seeing her for such a short amount of time or a shorter time than we used to spend with each other. Well tonight was the first night that i got to really spend time and do something with her.

I had a blast tonight, first I went and picked her up and we came back to my house to eat with my family. After a few stories that my parents willingly told about my oh so interesting self, I felt bad but she listened to my horrible practicing of the violin so that i could some what play in sacrament meeting tomorrow. I'm so surprised that she stayed around to listen it wasn't the prettiest sounding what so ever. When i finally finished practicing we went to the fiesta station to go ice skating. I was so scared to go at first cuz i have never been before so Alix was so happy to go to see me make an idiot of myself but I'm so glad i didn't even tho it did come close to me falling on my face a couple times and maybe bringing her down with me. We went back to my house after a drive around the ghetto for a while trying to find something to do. while we were here we watched Enchanted for a little and then I had to take her home barely making it.

So the thing that made me realize that i have such an amazing girl is that today was just one of those days that i started dwelling on the past and some mistakes that i have made. Some of the mistakes that i have made I'm so upset with myself that i even did them. Some things i learned from and others that we just stupid decisions. So it started off not such a good day but the only thing that i could look forward to was spending time with this beautiful girl it seemed like i was never going to get to. The minute i saw her when i went to go pick her up i completely forgot everything and it just made my day.

When i possible couldn't think that i could have a more perfect day i look back and see that every day get better and better when i get to spend time with Alix even if it is for a short little while.



Thank you so much for everything that you do even when you don't even realize it. you are perfect in every way.

Walk Of Shame

For the past 5 months I have been working at a law firm as a runner very exciting stuff. Not really. I supposed to be working from 12-5 but usually don't make it in there till 12:15 or later. Today wasn't a good day for waking up so i was running even later than i usually do and had to rush to get off to work. Most of the time when I get ready in the morning and about ready to go I grab my wallet out of my pocket from the jeans the night before, well this morning as I got in my car I realized that I didn't have my wallet. I usually don't get pulled over so there was no point in wasting time to go back in and grab it so I just started up and went on my way. As I was heading to work I noticed that I was low on gas. I decided that I would fill up during work fully knowing that I didn't have my wallet.
I get to work at 12:30 finally, the nice thing about going in at 12 is that everyone is at work so they really don't know that I'm coming in late. I do my normal walk around seeing if there is anything I need to do before I leave and then head out to do all my runs. I start driving to go to the court house and stop by at a gas station keep in mind I still don't have my wallet. I walk up to the cashier to pay with my debt card. I tell her that I was at pump ** and i need $$ dollars on it (I don't really remember the pump number or how much I said it doesn't really matter tho). Now that I have done all that I go to reach for my wallet to pay for it in order to fill up my car (this is where i feel like a total idiot) where my wallet should be there is nothing so now I have to do the walk of shame out of the gas station and drive all the way back to my house jusst cuz I was to lazy to grab my wallet.

So I finished my day at work and not a moment to soon. Being done with work is so nice cuz that means I don't have to be around crazy co-workers and I get to see the one person that can brighten my day just by seeing her smile. Tonight was a fun night Chunky and Tard Butt had been hanging out before I was able to so they started watching Pride and Prejudice I finally showed up at the end which I was perfectly fine with. For some odd reason they like taking pics of me tho while I'm not really paying attention I'm not going to post any of the pics at this time but I might later. All in all it was an amazing night. It always is when you get to spend it with the most perfectly amazing girlfriend that you could ever ask for.

Thanks Alix your everything anyone could as for and more. I'm so glad that I get to spend so much time with you.

Dear Tubby

Today while sitting in math class there came a point when I decided I had better things to write than the notes about solving radicals. So I came up with a list of why you are amazing. This is only a short list compared to the infinate reasons for why I think your amazing. I figure though that this way you won't be able to tell me you're not amazing when I say you are, because now I'm giving you valid reasons! And when you tease me by repeating all the things I've said to you (like the paper bag thing) I can tell you to refer to this list and then you won't be able to tell me I'm mean lol. So here is the beginging of the many reasons I feel so lucky to have met you. (These are in no particular order either)

1. You cuddle with me. Even though there are times I beg for us to go out, my favorite thing to do is curl up on the couch in your arms and watch a movie. Even though I'm never paying attention to the movie those are some of the best nights.
2. You have an amazing sense of humor. My family has a very dry sense of humor and most people that come into our house run away screaming because they don't understand how we joke. But you play along and throw the sarcasm right back. (Even though it's my fault they tease you (yes I'm admitting to it)). Not only that but you can tease me. Your not afraid to joke around with me, but at the same time you never take it to a point that hurts me. You constantly make me laugh and giggle and that's amazing!
3. Along with always making me laugh you always make me smile. People always know when I'm texting you because I get this huge grin on my face. It probably makes me look ridiculous, but I don't care. Talking to you and being around you makes me smile so much I'm sure I'll get wrinkles before I'm 20.
4. You put of with my bratiness. It's not news to me that I'm difficult. People have been telling me this my whole life. Thankfully you put up with it. Even when I told you you sucked at picking movies the SECOND time we hung out. I think I was insane to be that bold by saying that so early, but you just laughed and agreed never to pick a movie again.
5. You spoil me. I mean this not only materialistically, but emotionally as well. I'm not much for materialistic stuff, in fact it makes me feel bad that you always pay and stuff (I have no idea why). But you make me feel like I'm perfect. I feel like I don't have to pretend to be anything I'm not because you except me just the way I am. I feel spoiled in that sense because I do some things that are pretty out there and it takes an amazing person to stick around after seeing me in my crazy times.
6. I can tell you anything. Literally. Well bahaha lately there's been one thing that just hasn't gotten all the way out there. And I'm not about to put it on our blog because saying it in any form of technology is STUPID. But aside from that I can really tell you anything. My whole life I've had trouble being able to open up to people. With you everything comes so easily and that's so amazing to me that I can share my life with you..good and bad.
7. You read my blog. (And blog with me). If you read anyone elses blog you'll notice that they all say, "My boyfriend never reads my blog." You take time out of your day to read what I have to say (even though I tell you anyways) I write my blogs knowing that your going to read them and be just as excited about what I wrote as I was! Sometimes the only reason I blog is because I know you'll read it. I love that! I love that you think what I think and say is important instead of just blowing it off (even if I do write about ridiculous things that no one really cares about!)
8. You let me drive. It's no secret that statistics show that girls are bad drivers. But aside from that I am a crappy driver period. I've hit 2 parked cars (1 before I even got my license), I've been in an accident, and I've run 2 red lights (recently..oops). I take a suicide risk everyday just by getting in my car. It's sad I know, but you still let me drive. You've never even said anything about it..except for the usual teasing of course :)
9. Your make me want to be a better person. I'm not exactly sure what it is you do, but something about being around you make me want to try harder...with everything...at church, at school, with friends, with you, with family. Since we started talking I've wanted to be a better person and that's amazing. I mean why would I want to be around someone that's bringing me to a place I don't want to be right? Right!
10. Your everything I want and more. Your all the 9 reasons above. Your physically what I want in a guy, your intellectually what I want, emotionally, everything. And everytime I talk to you you say something that knocks the breath out of me because without even realizing it you say something that fits me "model guy".

Thank you for being you and for being a part of my life for the past..however long..I'm not even sure exactly. You are amazing and I truly hope you know that! :)

Love, Chunky

Hardest Posts!

In my experience the first post of a blog are always the hardest. I hate them. But I guess if you don't have a first you can't keep moving on so here we go. If your still not caught up on the nicknames I'm Chunky (Alix) and he's Tubby (Chey) Basically this blog is an attempt to get him to blog. I have no idea if it's going to work, but it's worth a try :)

A little info: Like I said my name is Alix. Alix Elizabeth. I don't really like putting my last name on the web and I don't think it really matters anyways because eventually it's going to change. I barely turned 18 and I'm a youngin. It sucks, but whatever. I graduated in 2008 a year early. Most people tell me I'm an idiot for skipping out on my senior year, but I wouldn't change it for anything. Personally I think it was the best decision I've ever made. I'm a freshman at UNLV studying to become a biology teacher. My main ambition in life is to marry my soul mate, start a family, and eventually buy a piece of property big enough to have horses!

I met Chey over the summer on the Church History Tour. I though he was cute, but was kinda off on another planet during that time so I didn't pay too much attention to him. A few weeks later my best friend, Shelby, had a birthday party and Chey was there. I flirted my butt of the best way I knew how and he threw a bug in my hair. Before I left I pulled this trick where I basically stole his phone and called my phone from his to get his number. He took my phone and kept erasing it. So I left without getting his number. You'd think I would've given up after being faced with pure rejection, but I didn't. I got his number from another mutual friend and we started talking. We talked on and off for a few months and then I gave up completely. He ended up texting me out of the blue in like November and eventually we got to the point where we talked all day everyday. I really liked him and wanted to hang out, but it never worked out. Finally, we started hanging out and the rest fell into place. He's amazing! He's everything I want and more and I feel very lucky to have met him.

My First and Hopefully Not My Last

For all of those who don't know me I'm Chey McDonald, I graduated from Centennial high school in 2008 and now I'm going to be attending this amazing college called CSN I cant wait. It would be a lot better if someone would come there too but no they would rather go to UNLV idk whats so special about it. I'm going to school for my generals right now but as of right now i want to either be a Physical Therapist, or Physchologist, or even a scarier thought an orthopedic surgeon.

So Chunky started the blog to get me to start telling more about my boring life i don't know what shes really expecting out of this but we will see how well it goes. I'm so glad that i was able to meet her tho. I first met Alix on the Church History Tour I didn't really see to much of her tho. After the tour i didn't really see her till her friend Shelby had a birthday party and we were at In-n-out and she kept trying to take my phone to get my number for some odd reason i have no idea why. the rest you get from the post above no point in rewriting it. But I am so glad that i met and started talking to her i feel so lucky she is so amazing and words can not explain.